Last week I felt like I had no lows, you know like highs and lows of life... I was riding high. When I was meeting with why women’s group from church I even said that I didn’t have any lows. I felt kind of guilty hearing other peoples’ lows of the week and feeling pretty good about my week. This week has been a little different.
I know it’s totally normal to experience lows in life but man, lows plus suffering from anxiety is just intense. I’ve suffered from anxiety for the past four and a half hears and sometimes it just feels like everything is piling too high and I’m not equipped to tackle any of it. Something that has been weighing heavily on me is that things are changing at my church that I don’t really like. I’m trying not to be selfish about it but it’s hard! I tell myself that I’m not coming from a selfish place anyway.
Whenever I feel overwhelmed I get such a short temper with my babies and I HATE that about myself! I know they’re not trying to annoy me or do the wrong things but sometimes I go to God for guidance, well, all the time!
I’ve been trying to keep this in my head this week; “You are the people of God; He loved you and chose you for His own. So then, you must clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.” ~ Colossians 3:12