My Takeaways From Church This Week

I wanted to share two Instagram posts that pretty much have summed up my latest feelings about faith and growth with God.  I've never been one to talk a lot about my faith but I'm starting to want to because I know it could help bring people who aren't following Jesus to Him and that's what we're all made to do right?...To be disciples of His.

This first post's caption pretty much says it all.  I was in such a low place when I started attending church.  To me, church is just one of the first steps.  Church, a physical place, allowed me to feel connected in some way, like I was part of something.  It's almost been a year since the first time I stepped inside and I am JUST now getting up the courage to start stepping out of my comfort zone.  I try to chat with people I recognize, I joined a small group which has been SO beneficial for me so far, I signed up to be a volunteer for the church.  I feel way more connected and that in itself is a big deal for me.  I think it would be a big deal for anyone.  We all want and crave connections with other people, to know we're not alone, right?  Check it out below...

To the person wondering if you've got what it takes...⁣ ⁣ Spoiler alert; Hi! You do. In November last year I started going to church for the first time. I didn't know what I was doing...but I went. I showed up. I was so overwhelmed with emotion and felt like I was going to be judged on so many levels. Some things you don't share on social media, or with your friends, or even your family but God knows. He knows everything about you, your happy thoughts, your dark thoughts, your secrets. How am I supposed to feel comfortable going to a church when I know I'm a big ol' sinner?! ⁣ ⁣ I was in such a low place in my life, pretty much my rock bottom when I made the decision to go to church. I was suffering from depression and anxiety, I felt betrayed by someone close to me which made me hate myself, I had just quit my full-time out of the house career against the wishes of my husband, I was trying every fad diet I could find but I was failing because food was the only thing I could control it seemed like, my marriage was falling apart ... I was a mess, a hot, sticky, undeserving mess. You'd never know from looking in though, right? We don't like those parts of our lives to be seen. These days we can share all of our highs and have people envy us and say, "Man I wish I could be like that...", in reality knowing that it's all a facade. ⁣ ⁣ I was baptized in February this year and my life changed. My outlook on life had changed, I felt God with me and knew I could rely on Him, He would always provide for me. I realized that He'd always been with me even in the lowest points of my life. As my faith grows, my life changes. I'm NOT going to say everything is perfect because it's not, but it's changing and that's how I know God is working in my life and in SO many others' lives! God is alive, guys, you just have to open your eyes and look! ⁣ ⁣ #faith #indianapolis #indyigers #christianity #momblogger #god #traderspointchristianchurch #godisalive

My post from last night is a big one for me.  Our pastor spoke right into my heart.  There are so many things I've done and said that I wish I hadn't.  before I started following Jesus there were so many times I just knew that I had gone too far, that I wouldn't be accepted into His kingdom after my life here ended.  But guess what?...I was wrong!  Majorly wrong and I've been blessed to be able to find a church that accepts every person.  They want you to come as you are, a sinner, an addict, a spouse in a failing marriage, a cheater, a thief.  Our church is amazing and our pastor made so many things clear for me last night...

You aren't who you will be one day. It's true. You aren't who you used to be either. Stop letting who you were define you!⁣ ⁣ Church service had a message that spoke to me so much tonight. So many times I've heard that little voice in my head say, "If they knew..." It's stopped me from saying things I know I should say, going after things I know I should pursue, standing up for people I know I should be a voice for. ⁣ ⁣ If they knew what I used to do, who I used to be they'd call me a fraud, they'd call me a failure and a hypocrite. You wanna know what God calls me? His DAUGHTER! Once you accept Jesus into your life you're made new, you're forgiven, free, and fully justified. The devil loves to try to convince you that's a lie and try to get you to live in your past and be defined by your shame and guilt. God lifts you up and empowers you. He takes you on a journey with Him. It might not be an easy journey but there are reasons for that! ⁣ ⁣ I used to feel defined by my depression. I've suffered for the past four years and still struggle some days with the feeling of inadequacy, embarrassment, and unworthiness. That's the devil creeping up into my life over and over and I know it now! I'm on my journey with God and it's a process that isn't going to change things overnight. ⁣ ⁣ It's okay to not be okay. That's a hard thing to say when so much of what we're exposed to on social media is the perfectly put together home and family and life. My life surely isn't perfect, is yours? This photo might make it seem like I'm all put together but I'm not... behind the scenes there is so much I don't want other people to see. So many weaknesses that I've hidden for so long but I learned tonight that God loves my weaknesses. He works through them to reach other people who don't follow Jesus. You never know who'll you'll reach and who you might impact with a story of weakness. #faith #traderspointchristianchurch @traderspointcc #momblogger #indianapolis #faithoverfear